Its monday, and its usually the most boring day of the month.. after a long weekened i decided to take another leave today.. dont have the mood to go to work.. feel abit left out and my mind is in a mess at the moment. Gosh..its pretty a long week.. cant wait for another two more months till its christmas and im still wondering where am i supposed to be by then?? wanting so badly to celebrate christmas with my love this year but he have to work..well, there's always other years to come., and hopefully next year he would be around for christmas. Even New year eve, im not sure where should i celebrate it. Im in a mixture of feelings though now.. cant really make up my mind.. i just have to scruggle to keep life going on. I got alot of work to complete and yet christmas is in another two more months and im wasnt ready for it yet. By next year, im sure things will change.. another year older yeah.. wow.. time flies so fast and it feels as it was still January hehe.. January?? ooo..tats my birthday. hehehe... and that even make me anxious..
Things have totally change alot this year.. life have been treating me not that good either.. only close friend understand what i have been going through all this years. Im missing my friends back in kuching.. but im happy that i finally have the chance to meet up with them after five years. College years was the most memorable thing in my life. It have taught me lot of things.. experiencing the new life, having new friends of all culture and races and having to found a perfect person whom have been with me since now.. it wont be the same anymore now that we all when our separate ways.. working and happily married. Wouldnt it be great if i can only turned back time to the old days. really i missed those things we have did.. it wont be the same now, that im far away leaving those old memories back there.. though i offen be back visiting them all.. but it was never the same now like it was before. Now time is too precious.. and we are finally reaching the end of the year.. and we are getting older each year.. i just dont know why im blogging on this things today..maybe its because im missing my friends and my love so badly.. i wish i could just stayed back but i have things to do here. It was never the same, life here have too much things to handle, feeling like a stranger, in my own country..thats even worst.. i just dont know why.. its weird but the fact its the truth. maybe because i have spend my entired life with lots of different friends and that i have found the perfect friends in life.. erm.. maybe! Anyway.. life must go on.. and im waiting for right time to annouced on things which will hopefully happen in the years to come.. till then..
