Rough time!!

Its saturday and its a off-day for me. Had a rough time at work this week.. things when toally out of hand. Just two days ago, i had been struggling to get my work done and i accidentally deteled the most important folder. I got panic and was nearly fainted...i just couldnt breathe.. im seeing stars flashing around me.. wow... i never felt this way before, never in my life.. this is the very first! My hands were cold and i was sweating out of a sudden.. i just stood there thinking a way to get it resolve back but i just cant get it back... trying to retrieve it from the deteled item but it seems to be gone out of a sudden..the recycle bin was empty..gosh..all i did was to prayed that i got the folder back... as usual i rushed to my colleague pc and thank god once again..i still got a back-up for the folder...lucky me.. this is what i hate the most, having to panic out of a sudden, and the worst my portable hard-drive is just too senstive..i must be cautious next time or i might get even worst.

Anyhow, was having a tired time recently, work have been keeping me rushing here and there. Life have not going steady, since i got back from my trip. I dont bother to talked about all of that.. need time to get things settle before it get worst. At the moment, im still surviving to get things back to normal. Well, i got another two more months to go before my sister's wedding, and i still havent found the right shoe and dress for the occassion. Last week, we when for a photo shoot, since mom insist of having a photo shoot with my sister. Well, its the first wedding though for her children so why not go for it..had a family photo taken with my sister and her husband (my to-be brother in-law) in miri, it took us the whole day... was tiring though! ahah... family seems to be preparing for the big occassion and i so anxious about her big day.. just wonder how to greet them..since her hubby-to-be is of chinese origin..hehehe.. well it would be of two culture..never experience it. haha..this is the very first for my family! anyway.. im trying to asked my friends how would the culture be.. hehe.. well..cant wait for the day to come as if im the one who's getting married hehehe..

Well, chinese new year is like another 2wks from now.. and it would be another holiday.. i need a break..i do... too much thing been bothering me this month... i need a rest too... im just too tired!! better go for my leave hehe... neways..now i have got to signoff... wanna have a rest since its weekened and im just bored staying home doing nothing during weekened. Bet i just watched the dvd i bought..anyway..........till then...

Away for the weekened..a "BIRTHDAY TREAT "

Its a new chapter of my blog here. A New Year to begin with more blog to shared. Anyway.. just getting things back to normal. As usual..i was pretty busy lately with work. Life have been treating me quite ok last year but some parts where its a pain in the butt but in the end i managed to get it back to normal.

Neways, i was so anxious about my trip again back to kuching.. (never get bored of kuching), its like a second home to me (hopefully it will..soon!) and i havent pack my begs yet..wow thats sure totally insane of me..at this hour..i should have get things ready for my flight tomorrow. Hopefully i wont forget my passport haha.. that would really gonna make me even more insane..

Ill be spending my weekened in kuching since my birthday is like two more days from today. Want to have a nice weekened, relaxing my minds from the work load which have been pressuring me the past years..Im sure my friends are all anxious as well on seeing me. I just cant wait, to see all my girlfriends though i just meet them on my last trip in october. Well just hope ill be enjoying my birthday away day in kuching for the third time..hehe.. erm... (thinking..thinking pretty hard.. wonder what my love will be giving me for my birthday..hehehe)i cant wait to see him as well...

Anyway, i have got to end my blog here... i need to get ready my suitcase for my trip tomorrow or ill missed my flight hehehe ( sigh* i wont though haha) will get my blog updated again once im back from my trip in few days..till then..adios..

"Merry Christmas & Happy New Year"

Its been awhile since i last updated my blog here. Lately, i was pretty busy with work and can only manage to go through my friendster just to get updated on my friends list. Its nearly the end of the month and i still got lots of thing to think and handle. Hopefully its all done by the end of the month though. Life have been treating me not the way i wish it would be. Been going through some rough time lately, where i tend to ignoring someone. But i never wanted it to happen, it just happen in a sudden without me, doing it on purposed. Work load have given me the pressure and stress. Too much to handle and i ended stressing myself by the end of the day. Lucky me i still got the faith and courage to faced it on my own though its really difficult for me. Thank god for his courage on showing the path.

Christmas is like another few more days and i was also busy preparing for it. Last, week i managed to bake some cakes and make some biscuits. And today, a colleague gave me a cake for christmas which i havent got the time to taste it hehe..im pretty sure he's a really good baker, since he gave me two of his delicious yet marvellous cheese cake recipe. Neways, im plannig to bake a cheese cake for christmas as well.. im not really sure how it taste but previous i tried it like five times and it turns out to be something delicious and mouth watering hehe.. so that show it is delicious though im not good at decorating the cakes but im trying to make it taste nice instead for a change. Gosh..its been a really tiring month for me and i tend to feel each and everyday time flies so fast.. maybe its because it the end of the year..well, people said that though, not sure if its true?? anyhow, i still need to do some christmas shopping for gift, i only managed to get only one gift and i still need like ten more, well... got a pretty big erm..let say huge family..well, need to think of a gift!! This year christmas i kinda missed my cousin lenz.. she's in the UK this year and its her very first year to be away from home.. we do all missed her much, for without her around the house would be empty..not one teasing, no loud laugh from her.. well... that wont be long. Hopefully next year christmas she be home. cant wait though to see her.

I was hoping this year christmas i could spend it with someone special but too bad he have to work. but no worries..by next year ill be celebrating it with him. erm..... it would be a long weekened... and its raining all the time, just hope Brunei wont be flooded like Malaysia. Just pray that the rain will stopped!... and now im getting even anxious for the new year to come.. its like three weeks from now till my birthday which im planning to celebrate with me love..hehe.. i just cant wait! wonder what will i get for my birthday.. and by then i have a big day to handle and i need time to get it all done by mid of next year..hehehe.... anxious..anxious for the day...

Neways, got to end my blog now.. need some rest.. got lots of thing to settle... need some thinking to do.. before i end this i wanna wish everyone "Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2008" have a pleasant time and enjoy yourself....take care...

Corrupted!! aiyooo...

Had a rough day today.. was totally tired and had alot of things to do at the office. Need to do some updating on the drawings and the others where busy moving around all the cabinets for the new workstation.

Just dont know why im having a bad day today.. was having a tummy ache and suddenly this afternoon my portable drive was corrupted and im lossing all my drawings in it! How can it happen when i was nearly completing the updating of drawings..so siao eh... aiya... i was panic just dont know what else to do... i stood there for awhile trying to breath when suddenly my mind is back to where i was.. i rush to my colleague P C and lucky me i have the backup on all the thousands of drawings! Gosh....i have been safe! thank god.. but the sad thing is i just have to start over again.. imagine it.. updating thousand of drawings all over again!! that would take me months! aiya....matilah me like this.. but then i was lucky as well..cause some of the drawing have been updated hehehe...thank god again!

That is why i hate using this stupid portable drive..ya, it is portable.. with 50GB..but once you mis-used it, you will lost everything! all those important things in it.. but i was lucky..partly lucky lah to have a back-up.. if not.. aduh.. i dont know what to do..and now i just have to tapau all my work home. Just hope my other portable drive wont have the same problem. aiya... so siao ah my day today! maybe its because im too tired..i dont think also the cause of it being corrupted.. im sure it is because of that stupid indian guy pendrive that have create the problem. Maybe his pendrive is affected by virus..eee... hope he will have the same problem also, hahaha...evil me eh!!Now i have to keep my anti-virus updated dont want it to happen again the next time..

Well.... im gonna have a pretty busy week.. i have to finish re-updating all the other drawings.. aiya... no hal lah hor..hope i can complete it before the dateline comes.. till then.. take care ya all...

One boring day and im so damn tired!!

Im so tired and cant hardly moved around. My body was in a pain and im sleepy. Since, im back from kuching i havent had enough rest, have to rush on things and im thinking too much lately. There's a pile of work to complete and im just too tired to faced the PC for eight whoke hours, my eyes are soar..and my back are ache..
Yesterday, was raining heavily till this early morning. And i have to attend for the Safety Briefing conducted by Brunei Shell to keep us aware on safety procedure during working. Gosh, it was so boring that i just have to sit there and listen to the speech and watching a video for thirty minutes. Luckily, there was refreshment to keep me awake for the whole section. Eventhough, i was abit sleepy i have to attend for the briefing as well as joining a quiz.. nah..its just for fun, taking my sweet time answering the question on safety just to keep me awake for the whole morning.
Lunch time, i have to accompany my colleague to the cafeteria for lunch, didnt have a clue on what to have for lunch cause i cant make up my mind on what to eat and it ended me on having nasi goreng instead. The food at the cafeteria suck! having the same menu over and over again.. and causing me to lose my appetite to eat, hehehe...what to do, thats the only place we have around the plant. By late afternoon, i just cant control my sleepy eyes that i have to go to the ladies room, to wash my face so i can be awake for the next two hours till im home and i still got a whole lots of drawings to update! Im so... tired! wish i could have a long holiday so i can rest and enjoyed my sleep. Another two more days till its weekened though.. i need some rest, too much work and my mind is in a mess.. got alot of things to think of... some very important thing in life... huh... my body is aching..tired..tired...sleepy...omg! then maybe perhaps i just have to continue my blog next time.. wanna have some rest..i still got alot of work!! ciao..

Im on Leave..

Its monday, and its usually the most boring day of the month.. after a long weekened i decided to take another leave today.. dont have the mood to go to work.. feel abit left out and my mind is in a mess at the moment. Gosh..its pretty a long week.. cant wait for another two more months till its christmas and im still wondering where am i supposed to be by then?? wanting so badly to celebrate christmas with my love this year but he have to work..well, there's always other years to come., and hopefully next year he would be around for christmas. Even New year eve, im not sure where should i celebrate it. Im in a mixture of feelings though now.. cant really make up my mind.. i just have to scruggle to keep life going on. I got alot of work to complete and yet christmas is in another two more months and im wasnt ready for it yet. By next year, im sure things will change.. another year older yeah.. wow.. time flies so fast and it feels as it was still January hehe.. January?? ooo..tats my birthday. hehehe... and that even make me anxious..

Things have totally change alot this year.. life have been treating me not that good either.. only close friend understand what i have been going through all this years. Im missing my friends back in kuching.. but im happy that i finally have the chance to meet up with them after five years. College years was the most memorable thing in my life. It have taught me lot of things.. experiencing the new life, having new friends of all culture and races and having to found a perfect person whom have been with me since now.. it wont be the same anymore now that we all when our separate ways.. working and happily married. Wouldnt it be great if i can only turned back time to the old days. really i missed those things we have did.. it wont be the same now, that im far away leaving those old memories back there.. though i offen be back visiting them all.. but it was never the same now like it was before. Now time is too precious.. and we are finally reaching the end of the year.. and we are getting older each year.. i just dont know why im blogging on this things today..maybe its because im missing my friends and my love so badly.. i wish i could just stayed back but i have things to do here. It was never the same, life here have too much things to handle, feeling like a stranger, in my own country..thats even worst.. i just dont know why.. its weird but the fact its the truth. maybe because i have spend my entired life with lots of different friends and that i have found the perfect friends in life.. erm.. maybe! Anyway.. life must go on.. and im waiting for right time to annouced on things which will hopefully happen in the years to come.. till then..

Im feeling totally down..

Its sunday and i totally hate being left alone doing something without someone accompanying me. Gosh..i dont know what to do with this boring life of mine... totally insane am i?? yeah perhaps i am.. feel sick as well.. need sometime to get used to being back home after my holiday last week back to kuching and spending time with me love one.. i really missed him so..so..badly! wishing he can be here with me now... at least i got someone to talked and joke around with, i wouldnt be feeling this bad.. i wonder when can all this ended?? why shud this be a long distance relationship when i cant even bared the loneliness. I hate this feeling im having now. Im feeling sick.. gosh, would it be nice to end it fast.. in just a 'click' things are back with him..all alone with him.. five years is more than enough for me to handle.. i cant wait no more.. hopefully two years more is perhaps accepted but not more than that. I cant bared this loneliness without him.. those with long distance relationship will surely understand the feelings im having at the moment...

Things wont be the same anymore... without you around! My world is fill with emptiness..no laughters but instead tears appeared.. help! help! im 100% insane..im so lonely!! hahaha... yeah i am! im missing him so badly..gosh..haih.... i just dont know what else to say here... ciao.!

It take time

Gosh..i took me ages to finally got my blog name. Didnt thought it would take me this long to find the perfect and yet something different from the otherss.. but hey..no worries that i ended in having one now. Sound weird and bored isnt it?? hehe..well.. i cant think of something more better than this.. just as long as i can create a blog here that's more than enuff for me for now...

Hoping to provide you all with my erm,,, guess im not that new on this blogging thing..haha.. well.. its just to keep me busy after a long day at work.. at least i can shared something here.. something bout me..and the things that happen surrounding me... my life..

Neways..here it comes to keep you all reading hehe.. njoy my blog here!